Its so easy to get distracted and start looking at the "worthless things". Finances have been a struggle, most of my stuff is in storage, and for the first time in a long time there is absolutely no money for Christmas presents (or other little extras) and in 16 days I have to either sign a new lease or find a new place to live. It was a mostly downhill rollercoaster ride for me yesterday as I became whiny and tearful over all the can't haves, looking at houses to rent didn't improve my moood any either.
But along the way God was encouraging me .... I got a call from a friend and we laughed at silliness for a good little while - we went to the bank and one of the ladies who works there came running up to Elli with a gift bag she had had hidden under her desk. Two weeks ago or possibly a little bit longer Elli had told her she wanted a little dog for Christmas. Inside that bag was a little dog that the bank lady had seen at big lots and just had to buy for Elli. We got to see the two granddaughters that live in west Texas, although sadly the boys weren't there, and spent some time hanging out with them. Elli, Papa & I hung out for a while with no agenda except waiting in Dillards and looked at Christmas things, and laughed and just relaxed.
Today I have been bagging up some clothes and blankets to bring to the homeless for Christmas morning - which is a good reminder of all the things I have been blessed with. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I have some shopping to do tonight for Elli (with other peoples money ;D).
Like the psalmist I want to remember to:
"Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word." Psalm 119:36-38
and know that God prizes me and loves me and that's why He came for Christmas.